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Thursday, June 29, 2006

this whole week had so many free periods, dunno whether its a blessing or not .



starting relating my past to someone , and i just realised how many sad and dark moments i had

when i was young . just by typing them out , i broke down. amazing how the past can affect you .

and to any concerned reader out there , don worry i am fine , my childroom was hapy , it had

some ups and downs nia .

who doesn't ?

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

back to school . so happy sch has reopened , cos got the mood to study ma . the new timetable rocks , lessons end much earlier .

mon took height and weight , i am 177cm tall and weigh 60 kg . yeah . then the whole day was so slack .

tues today was one of our longer days . had double science . so boring .

wed today was xt birthday , yeah . after school he treated mi and yann dar to ajisen , thnks , had so much fun . den hor , during elect his , mi and mr khoo were busy observing the beavior of some people . some cant stop shaking their legs , some cant stop moving their hands . move hands still got pattern one . we had a great time laughing at them .

the rise of converging emotions and ideas , will force the production of a decision , leading to true happiness , of everlasting sadness .

Friday, June 23, 2006

wha on thurs morning , i woke up with my whole body aching. at first i thought it must have

been to all the stuff i had carried at work the day before . i felt like a robot, so stiff. even

brushing my teeth was painful. then at about around noon , i realised i was running a fever too .

and there were little cute boils on my forearms . i was like , wah all the symtoms of dengue

appearing on me, maybe my school vacation was goin to be "extended" . let my mum look at

me , she called my nurse aunt . so i had to go see the doctor tml .


next day , played abit of dota before goin to the doctor, by then my fever was almost gone, thks

to the cups of chrysanthmum tea i had drunk . after the doctor had seen mi , which was rather

quick, others took 10 mins, mine took 2 mins, he said " this are all isolated cases so i don think

that u in the likelyness of contracting dengue" i was gabra, clueless what he said . so the doctor

simplified his diagnosy " boy , u suai suai one time get rash , fever abd muscle ache , tia bo"


actually the doctor didnt sae al that la , but i thot it would be funny if i blogged it that way . hehe

i love that sad story, cried man . so touching .

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

:D

wha i have been working since tues till now . legs so painful , veri tiring . but i have to hold on . wonder how am i goin to complete my hw .


~aRgH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


btw the way my next post is an attempt to beat gh at having the shortest post .

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

i wan to thank GiAn HuI for helping mi with my blog. thanks mei !!!!!!

anyone has suggestions on how i should thank her , tag me k .

Sunday, June 18, 2006

today went for my cousins wedding . yeah was so excited . first time one of my cousins get married ma . we went to his house so early in the morning . round 930 . haha . wha reached there , saw all my aunties in their sundays best . hehe . den my uncles side came . omg i had a shock . on my aunts side ( my side ) got 3 bros , mi my kor and my di . on my uncles side , got 3 sis . i was like wha seh , so heng ah .

can u imagine if my younger bro went out with their youngest sis , and i went out with the middle one , and my bro with the eldest one . omg , it will be like so cool man . now i shall take the time uto describe all three gals .

Elsa Chan - youngest . she is onli sec one , and she is as tall as amanda . and she is veri robust . hehe . veri frenly .

Emma Chan - middle . she is 15 , and she is my height man . she is damn tall , and she has a model's body . lean legs , slim body . and she is damn chio !!! kept sneaking peeks at her . hehe .

Edna Chan - oldest . she is 18 and in vjc i think . she looks veri mature despite her age . i thout she was their mum . haha .

triple e . haha

at the wedding reception at night , wha , i wore a formal attire , shirt , blazer , went to get my hair styled too . wha the head massage by the stylist is damn relaxing . hehe . i will try to post a pic of mi . haha .

then hor the 3 e came . wah emme wore a one piece gown . but she didnt look as nice as she did in the morning . wha then my cousin was damn pretty , not sister of the groom . wha man , damn hot lor .

the wedding food was damn nice too . i had sharkfin soup with crab roe . damn nice . den i had a whole crab pincer . i loved the coffee lamb or rather "lamp" as spelt in the menu . haha . the dessert was nice too .green tea pudding with fruits and berries .

my cousin-in-laws sister is a beach babe man . so sexy , and with her perfect tan , what , felt in the mood to get married . heeeheeeheeheeh

Saturday, June 17, 2006

my blog's song mtv . enjoy


Tuesday, June 13, 2006

golfing

went golfing on last sat till today . went with lim and xt . had so much fun . everyday we slack and slack . yeah my game is improving . hehe . but my club is dented .

i think i have forgetten her le . yeah . see i knew i could do it . but , it seems like no one believed mi . especially mr khoo . well i proved u guys wrong . but i wonder will it come back . not sure , and i dont really wanna think about it .

played tennis with lim and xt at batam . we were basically a bunch of noobs whacking the balls at everywhere outside the court , into the net . spent more time picking up the balls . then lim showed off his cute side while playing . they way he hits the ball , damn hilarious . then he keeping whacking so hard .

then at batam hor , wah something weird occured . we kept bumping into one korean gal . she cheacked into the hotel on the same day as us . wah mr ling see her heart beat fast fast . haha . then the weird things stared happening . as we went up the ilft , she came out . den later as we left our room to go swim , we walk into the lift , she came out again . but none of us said anything . jaws on the floor. but pick it up . den when we started swimming . she came to the pool , but she never swim . cos we and lim wore our goggles , ( pajiao so we cant see her ) mr ling ( perfect eyesight ) enjoyed the senery . from her it seems veri weird right . haha we called her the pink shirt gal . plus , the day we checked out , she did the same thing too . fate man . but
my smart mther told us something , that shoced us . she said that gal was engaged , got ring on finger . smart ah my mum .

so mr ling went home heart broken .

Thursday, June 08, 2006

no voice

wha lost my voice today . couldn't talk at all . so miserable . had lessons from 9 in the morning all the way to 4pm . so tired .

why i don like seeing the doctor - lazy to queue
- no one pei mi go see
- and i know wats wrong with me so i do not want to waste money.

old habits flashed through my mind , kind them aside .
sudden onset of dreams i wished i had before , but know discarded away .

i can do it . i will do it .

watched finish da chang jing today . so nice . it had a fairytale ending . ever wondered why min zheng hao beard is so symetrical , makes him looks too perfect , weird looking . since when does anyone have perfect facial hair . definitely not jing xin .

thought i could see catherine lee tml , haiz but my brother disappointed mi . why you never get the pass .

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

over and done

sometimes i wonder , why people sae ironic things . for example , passing flowers to mq , everyone sae why i never give them . abit dumb right . they know the answer , and if i give them the answer , i will make them look really stupid . Example is miss loo , ask me why i never give her flowers , still sae she jealous . another one , jasmine , sae cos i give flowers , huang yi they all expect her to give flowers to them , then come scold mi . hehe lameness . know u all trying to joke la . but i find it veri ironic .

went for combined concert . wore that black shirt . Do i look good it it , honestly , if anyone says no , yue wen and denise better give me back the money i paid for the shirt . hehe . no la . was having a meeting with my mum what pants should i wear with the shirt , whethe ri should tuck it in . the final results was nice . turned many heads on the way to the mrt .

the journey to the concert hall was a bit delayed . me wai and ger had "special" outing . hehe
before that , i was trying to psyco some "gentlemen" into buying flowers for some "ladies" in the end , only i went floral . the flowers looked nice .

the performance started with the band . they were way better last time , here are my ratings for the performances that night .

band - good

chinese orchestra - veri good

gu zheng - veri good

international dance - very good

wu shu - veri good

choir - good

sorry fro my ratings . maybe cos i have seen the band and choir's previous performances , so i have a higher standrad for them . and btw , trents a happy man . hehe.

when to pass mei qi flowers , funny thou , was much more nervous then the time i was passing flowers to wanyu . the environment i guess . many people will ask mi , since i am forgetting her , what for bother giving her flowers , some say i am just trying to gain attention , that i will never forget her . trust me , i will , i will show you pu yuan that i can do it . hehe

We may witness love in the making . cha cheong and sandra really hit off yesterday . maybe soon sandra may find true love . good luck .

jonathan lim - imagine the result , aim for it , and it will come true .

i will do it !

Sunday, June 04, 2006

The choice

finally decided to give up liking mei qi le . its been almost 1 year 5 months . haha finally realise my folly . and since i am sure she will never come her , i shall write out everything on my chest . when u read this , bear in mind the meaning , that true love exist , when you have it in your hands , hold it tight and never let it go .

everyday i see her in school , i wonder how she is feeling , wondering whether the smile on her face will remain . it hardly does .

everytime i try to speak with her , i become afraid and happy . enthuasitism overcomes shyness . everyword i say infront of her , goes through alot of thought , hoping what ever i sae will leave an impression on her . it never happens thou .

everytime i sms her , i have too much to sae , but due to the sms size restrain , i can only say so much . her replies are S.C.S , short cold and simple . on good days , she gives a lukewarm response , others , a considerate response . usually , no response . i don blame her , why would she want to converse with the guy who is guilty of hurting her . i thank her for being kind and considerate to reply my messages thou .

now she likes someone else . i wonder if that guy is lucky or not . having such a gal as mei qi liking him , good for him . bad luck is , he probably will never know of this little admiration from a soul nearby . i riddiculasly used to think the guy was me. now i feel like a idiot . it will never be mi . i am vulgar , noisy , rude , always putting people down ( sorry lim and thanks for telling mi and scolding me ) . so what if i can make people feel better . i make more people feel worst .

i haven realised truly my folly , as much as i wish to continue showering my concern and care on her , my feelings are wasted on a determined one . she is determined , in this aspect . if onli these determination would infect other ares of her life .

if i continue to think and expect her to like me again , then i am no better then shandi . thy shall not explain further . all i have been doing , it counting my chicks before they hatch . stupidly thinking things will go back to the sec 2 days . pure stupidity . people have asked mi to go after other gals , i will , when i feel there is someone special enough that she can replaced mei qi . there could be someone , out there , maybe even beside me . that person may even be a boy . hehe .

all i have been doing these few months , is a star . i have been like a star , watching mei qi from a far , occasiaonally she gazes at stars , but she will never know and attempt to reach for that stars , bother to realise the stars worry bout her , are concern about her . after all , stars are akin to dead matter , just like me , alive in body and spirit , now death in passion and soul .

by writing this , i feel like yishuen , trying to gain support from people , attention seeking as we call it . BUT , i am not seeking attention , just saying out all the pains and suffering of liking mei qi . pain and suffering , that i have brought upon my self - willingly , stupidly , lovingly , sanely .

LETS ALL STUDY HARD FOR OUR O LEVELS . AND GO TO MJC TOGETHER .