relieve

Wha long time haven blog le so i decided to pop a post today . hehe . so many things happen , but i forget all le . March hols like no hols , everyday got trainin , no time to rest , then still had to ching eng blog , haiz .

sch reopen got back all my test , such sucky results , got to start concentrating on studies again le . so i have decided to forget her , know it will be hard , but for my O level , gotta start now . If during this period of time , suai suai she like me , [which is quite impossible ] den too bad for me , all i can say is , movie replay again . haha :D

So happy for gerald ! So happy for everyone , but annoyed by some ignorant person , hu onli sides with facts that are bias , this person has completely no respect , and deserves to die , thinks onli her sis is right , and all of her live for her sis . Wat the hell wan to come argue with me , open ur eyes big big , know ur place . not even qualified to argue with me . den stil argue with contradicting points and use rubbish in HER statements .

you know hu u are , and i am damn happy to sever ties with you . good riddance . don bother asking me hu is this person in my blog , i wont tell you her name , not worth me remebering and mentioning . just know she is ignorant to the world around her , and trust wad she hears not wad she hears , 3 levels above her .

Lets all pia for our Os

" sometimes i wonder how i met her ?
sometimes i wonder why i befriended her ?
sometimes i wonder why i liked her ?
sometimes i wonder why i let her go ?
sometimes i wonder why i didnt cherish her then ?
now i wonder why i can't forget her ? "

i think today my horiscope reading veri bad , or someone up there really don like mi . morning skated home , one malay boy cross my path , avoided him but got stuck in a hole and fell . tt sucker nvr even help mi up . now my right hands has a deep cut and me knees and elbows all got scratches . den now i wearing 5 plasters -----> cute . haha

den went for badminton trainin at ACSI . omg the gals there are all so pretty and cute . all jc de . wished i was in jc den can go jio dem . no la jokin . den today played wif a i jured hand . was suppressing the pain while competeing . so xing ku . but we lost . after the match , went to quens way to buy mi new sch shoe . adidas de again . no surprise there . cost mi $80 , mummy wanted to chip in but i refused . so guai hehe the shoe veri nice . its white and yellow . last pair some more . so heng

after that reached home . my daddy was trying out a new recipe for ox tail stew . it was nice but the meat stew too long till break up le . pity . gobbled down dinner and went for floorball trainin . reached there late . was wearing tights , not xi guan . den i scored quite a no of goals . wah but then one of mi team mate tripped mi and slam mi tot he floor . i landed on all mi injuries . everywhere was burning . no foul , so angry.

i cant sms her for one week .its such a terrible feeling . starting to have doubts whether is it indeed possible for mi to get together wif her . she so shallow ar expressing how she feels . if she doesnt feel lie i do . y not just tell mi . at least i noe that being friends is all that we ever can be . been 1 year and 2 months . if u don count the pauses . bout 2 years le . but does love really exist on earth . it surrounded mi once and disguised it self , but i let it slip throught mi fingers . dis time , reality is pressuring mi to cease , but hope and faith is keeping it together . faced wif such feeling s, i hope u guys now noe tt even though i am always smiling , i am sad sometimes and need comforting . but so far no one has done tt , an i doubt anyone one will ever .

crying in the rain

Tired!!!!

wah i had such a tiring day today . in the morning , i had floor ball comp . we won . i scored . haha the stupid def push mi away , i puah him back , i got the ball and scored , he complain to the ref . "ref he push mi lei , " the ref said " u push him first wat " he stood their mouth open but no sound . by the way , the defender was a 180+ muscular man .

after that i rushed to work . had to quickly iron mi shirt . i burnt mi hand . so painful . then on the mrt , i listened to a jap song on the radio , White Light by Namie Amuro . its veri nice and the mtv rocks , its at mi friendster webbie , if u are free pls go and watch it. at work , found out one of me seniors almst went mad cos the gal he like don like him . wonder if i ll ever turn out to be like him . pls save mi from self destruction .

the bride at the wedding was so pretty . her hair was so nice . then it was so nicely styled . straight hair wif curled ends . chio man . but she would look better in it . haha bias . she was taller den mi . her husband was giraffe too . haha then there was this gal tt wore a pear shape dress. it was green somemore , haha .

i gladly gather all the in the universe , just to see her smile . she being in the centre of the stars and mi universe . haha . i am breaking soon . by then even true love would be too late to save mi . a smile hiding the malady , thats wats i have been doin since i met u , and till i forget you .

wed 8/3/2006

Yeah td is the last schooling day before the the march hols . so happy . can finally rest well le . den td got double surprise . 2 teachers nvr come . making my slackest day of the week , more slack . wah td heard some veri interesting news . haha .

yeah today i fianlly noe how to link people le . thks to Kylie . thks man . really appreciate it . she taught mi everything on how to link . then now got link to poeple le . my blog is turning out just fine .

found out thati am charasmatic . haha didnt know i was . dont even know the true meaning of tt . so far , onli madm ashikin and you have said so maybe its true .

i am so hungry now . my stomach(black hole , bottomless pit ) is grumbling . And mr glendon lee , pls make up your mind man . or u ll be in more trouble

"such love can onli be found in dreams "

Walking along the streets , distant memories of the past drifted quietly , effortlessly in my conscience . The corner restuarant , our first date . The book shop , where i felt the virgin warmth of your hands . The sight of the age old tree , home to majority of the "drifters" , etched on the painfull memories within me .



Embracing the tree , i stopped walking . It was here , where i gave my first kiss to you , symboling my undying and eternal love to you . My emotions overwhelmed me . Soon tears of regret , pain , were trickling down my flushed cheeks .
Why were you so foolish ? Why did you have to leave ? You went on , knowing the dangers lying ahead . Was it out of love ?


Aceton and i have known each other for four years ; every moment or day we spent together, forever staying in my ocean of memories . Then , i thought we would be together till the end of time , neither leaving the other , even for death .


Then one day , my dreams and hopes came crashing down before me. My kidney failed . The doctor said if i didnt have a transplant soo , i would die within three months . Recieving the tragic news thereafter , i almost lost myself to insanity . I resented accepting this painful fact .

In my darkest moments , Aceton appeared . My saviour had arrived in perfect timing . He encouraged me to carry on fighting , showering me wif love and concern constantly . He was the shepard to the lost lamb , me .

By a most fortunate stroke of luck , Aceton could donate his kidney to me . From that day on , all my hopes for recovery was pinned on him . My life was in his hands . However , i was oblivious that he himself was down with a malady . He was critically sick . Going for the in his condition , was a huge risk . A risk he lovingly undertook without any qualms .

On the day of the surgery , i was not afraid at all , with my soul mate by my side , i assumed both of us would come out of the operating theatre , equally safe , and with a much healthier me .

Assumptions are the mothers of all disappointments , someone once told me . Since that fateful day , i never saw Aceton again .


When i woke up from my coma days later , he was the first thought that came to my mind . However , once i spoke of his name , the atmostsphere turned gloomy , people started weeping . Just then , mother passed me a letter , it had a familiar scent on it , Aceton's favourite pen ink . i tore open the letter , in it , he said :

Angie , by the time u recieve this letter , i would have left this world for a better place . Before the surgery , i ahd instructed your mother , that if anything unfortunate should befall one me ,she pass you this letter . I have been critically ill , but the doctors said my kidnye was healthy enough to be able to be donated to you . And so i did . I knew the huge risk involved , i could die , never seeing you again . But for you , it was worth the risk . Angie , i love you with all my heart and soul , i will never forget you , and i hope you will never forget me . i will watch over you , just as i have these years , but this time from above .

I love you .

As i read the letter , tears were streaming down forming a puddle of infinite saddness and pain on the hospital floor . Aceton was gone . He was never coming back . i would never see those love filled brown eyes , or that infectious smile , never again .

Two years have come and gone . Aceton still remains vividly in my mind . As tribute to him , I have continued linving strongly as he wanted me to .

I wiped the tears off my face . and with shuffling footsteps and a heavy heart , i walked on .

Written by : Ma Mei Qi .

Translation by : Glendon

"breath" of life

Amidst the waves of people walkiing back and forth on the crowded streets , i sat by the window , sipping my tea . Thoughts and memories flushed into my head . Those awful memories ...........

That day , while i was walking along the busy streets , i was recieved a sign , a siganl telling me something bad was about to befall me . In a blink of an eye , it rendered mi hopeless and lost . Suddenly my handphone rang . My suspicions were comfirm .

My heart and footsteps were dancing to the same rythm as i quickened my pace . Out of thin air , i vaguely saw a man in a black coat following me . His face was unclear , his presence intrigued me , but i could't care less . I was close to jogging now . Fear gripping my heart triggered streams of tears down my pale porcelin face .

I broke into a run . Sweat overan my shirt . I suddenly realised the importance and value of time . Time lost can never be recovered . My body starting feeling strained as the air around became stagnent . The black coat man had company now .

I ran straight to the hospital without pause . i stopped to catch my breathe , it seemed lost then . I knew i still had time . She was still undergoing surgery . i sat on the chair , hands held tightly together , waiting patiently and quietly . Praying-hoping that my daughter would be fine .

Finally the doctor came out , speaking in a warm and sympathetic tone , trying to reassure me I would have none of that gibberish . I shoved the doctor aside and tore into the operating theatre . I wanted to hear her voice , nothing more , nothing less .
The doors creaked as i passed them by . There on the bed , i saw what ever that was left of my daughter on the bed . She was weak and fragile , like the day i gave brith to her . the whiteness of the walls . bedsheets and blankets , highlighted the palor of her face . She cried for me . Her voice strained and cracked by the illness . Was standing by and watching my daughter die the single thing i could do ? Was there nothing i could do to ease the pain of my darling . How much i wished that all the pain and suffering she had endured , could be directed to me , let me be the scape goat i exclaimed .

I instinctively started humming her favourite tune . I sat by her , never wanting to leave her again . My tearful eyes bestowing her distorted face .

"Why must this malady befall this seven year old ? A seven year old with a future brimming with promise , now snatched aways by the evils of her ailments ." i cried out in angony . I closed my swollen eyes , trying to reminisce the times she had fun , drawing , playing ..........

I was so vurnerable . Her hands were ice cold , her life dangling on a fragile line . I held on tightly to her hands , fearing that she would desert me if i let go .

When i opened my eyes , i saw her, hand-in-hand with the black coat men , drifting away , carried by the gentle breeze . She had left all her worldly pain and suffering behind .

I gazed at the window . awaiting her return , but that was the last i saw of her .

I blame these small hands , for not holding her tight enough , permiting her to slip away from me once more .........

Done by : Alina Low Yue Wen

Translated by : Glendon

tues .......

wah td was a sucky day . fell down during pe and cut mi hand . now my thigh got blueblack . sooo pain . cos of lisa la . evrythim e i get the ball dribble , she come near , sure fall down . 2nd time liao . heng she on mi team for n league , if not i sure hand break leg brake .

read the story le . thks alina , i ll repay u over the next few days . check mi blog u ll see . wah yue wens story so full of chinese words tt i cant read . so it must be damn good la . den fav words are , ( bu zhi jue ) correct . haha den in the end the daughter die , also so drama .

mq one starting look so nice . den later read le the fancifull vocab started to fade a bit . but her story also got someone die . y these 2 stories got people die de , sumonre got love involved . but i would 't mind dying for the ones i love . haha

dis mornign i suddenly realised , does she noe , i really wonder . signals and signs all zooming pass mi in a foreign language tt i cant understand . haiz language of love . even harder den chi for mi .

mi soccer skills deprove le . my shoots now not like they used to be . but!!! i still keep hitting the cross bars . old habits die hard . den td , little jing jing show off his hidden strength , i kick the ball , he can punch it till over the tall fence and unto the road . pro hor . jian bu de he during n league dis strong . haha

sianz day

woke up early today , was goin to mi aunts shop to work . earn money!!!!!! woke up so early . reached the cafe , all the phillipinoes rushed to buy water . had to jump start me engine .
started smsing people . had to check on someone to se whthers she was feeling more happier . glad she was . haha . not her , is another her .

i found out tt people really reply so slow td . sux . in between the afternoon to at night , had a terrible head ache . attempted to cure it by smsin friends . no one replied . haiz . then onli the person tt caused the head ache replied , causing mi further headache . chat til wanted to throw me phone on the floor . details look at mi msn nick . wat the hell . topics of the chat were rubbish .

at round 7 , something weird happen . saw the most pretentious gals in mi life . they were a bunch of ah lians deprived of attention from boys i think cos when they tried to order food , dey were frantically trying to get mi attention . i not the most suaiz of bois they also wan . they were putting up quite a show , acting the sweetest most possible way they could . speaking in perfect eng . den when one drop the coin on the floor , in one voice they sang the FUCK YOu song . haha was so funny . den they tried to cover up their "mistake" by acting ladylike . was containing mi laughter in mi stomach .

on the way home i saw something veri interesting on the mrt train. i was sitting down . on mi right i saw this young indian gal , holding the vertical bar , and goin around in circles clockwise . den she was like so cute , but it made mi dizzy . so i looked to mi left , guess wad i saw . i saw a young chinese gal, hlding the verticle bar , and goin around in circles anti clockwise . den when i looked straight , i realised they were competing against each other , which resulted in mi seeing a white moving line on mi left , and a black movin line on mi left .

den the competiton got serious . the chinese gal started to act cute to everyone on the bus . the indian gal tried it too . guess who won . none . no one noticed them . amazingly . onli mi and one 19+ gal noticed . we exchanged looks of giggles . den the best part , both gals got off at tampines . and went down via the lift . imagine wad dey would do i the lift .haha