"such love can onli be found in dreams "

Walking along the streets , distant memories of the past drifted quietly , effortlessly in my conscience . The corner restuarant , our first date . The book shop , where i felt the virgin warmth of your hands . The sight of the age old tree , home to majority of the "drifters" , etched on the painfull memories within me .



Embracing the tree , i stopped walking . It was here , where i gave my first kiss to you , symboling my undying and eternal love to you . My emotions overwhelmed me . Soon tears of regret , pain , were trickling down my flushed cheeks .
Why were you so foolish ? Why did you have to leave ? You went on , knowing the dangers lying ahead . Was it out of love ?


Aceton and i have known each other for four years ; every moment or day we spent together, forever staying in my ocean of memories . Then , i thought we would be together till the end of time , neither leaving the other , even for death .


Then one day , my dreams and hopes came crashing down before me. My kidney failed . The doctor said if i didnt have a transplant soo , i would die within three months . Recieving the tragic news thereafter , i almost lost myself to insanity . I resented accepting this painful fact .

In my darkest moments , Aceton appeared . My saviour had arrived in perfect timing . He encouraged me to carry on fighting , showering me wif love and concern constantly . He was the shepard to the lost lamb , me .

By a most fortunate stroke of luck , Aceton could donate his kidney to me . From that day on , all my hopes for recovery was pinned on him . My life was in his hands . However , i was oblivious that he himself was down with a malady . He was critically sick . Going for the in his condition , was a huge risk . A risk he lovingly undertook without any qualms .

On the day of the surgery , i was not afraid at all , with my soul mate by my side , i assumed both of us would come out of the operating theatre , equally safe , and with a much healthier me .

Assumptions are the mothers of all disappointments , someone once told me . Since that fateful day , i never saw Aceton again .


When i woke up from my coma days later , he was the first thought that came to my mind . However , once i spoke of his name , the atmostsphere turned gloomy , people started weeping . Just then , mother passed me a letter , it had a familiar scent on it , Aceton's favourite pen ink . i tore open the letter , in it , he said :

Angie , by the time u recieve this letter , i would have left this world for a better place . Before the surgery , i ahd instructed your mother , that if anything unfortunate should befall one me ,she pass you this letter . I have been critically ill , but the doctors said my kidnye was healthy enough to be able to be donated to you . And so i did . I knew the huge risk involved , i could die , never seeing you again . But for you , it was worth the risk . Angie , i love you with all my heart and soul , i will never forget you , and i hope you will never forget me . i will watch over you , just as i have these years , but this time from above .

I love you .

As i read the letter , tears were streaming down forming a puddle of infinite saddness and pain on the hospital floor . Aceton was gone . He was never coming back . i would never see those love filled brown eyes , or that infectious smile , never again .

Two years have come and gone . Aceton still remains vividly in my mind . As tribute to him , I have continued linving strongly as he wanted me to .

I wiped the tears off my face . and with shuffling footsteps and a heavy heart , i walked on .

Written by : Ma Mei Qi .

Translation by : Glendon